Hi, there, Netizen! And people who stupidly or a bit Ignorance that read this blog thoroughly!
By the way, thanks for it! I appreciate it.
Now, let me talk about Ignorance.
Ignorance is like something you just left it out then suddenly you kinda care for it and then you don't. That is what I thought about Ignorance.
Let's just talk about a girl, shall we?
Let's call her, Christa.
It's a fake name and if it's correlated to you, you may want to talk with my lawyer about it and no animals harm in this story.
Christa is an Idol, an actress, a famous person. Well, whatever you call it. She was cute, pretty, and have all the dreams that every girl dream. Well, d'oh, becoming a famous person.
Let's just say, before she was famous, she was like a better girl than before. Yes, kind and something like that. Yes, it was all in my opinion. I met her on twitter, talk about it online, and know her by being such a douchebag, but still "support" her in every possible kind of way.
It was like you found an unpolished diamond, and something like that I wasn't sugarcoating it but you'll understand about it. Later in this blog.
I was like having contact with her a lot, even after she start to take the stairs for becoming star. Well, one-sided, though. I was enthusiastic with her, yes, what could possibly go wrong, I thought. But it's all a shattered dream voyage. And will talk about it later, in the part of the story.
I've been every low of her and through. There was one time that her scandal pics are escalated through out all the social media and generate a huge commotion, which I thought not a big deal, she almost become someone famous and everybody really going all-out to bring her down, she chat me a while, then she asked if it's disappointment to me. Well, it was a helluva struck of lightning, I tell you. But I said, it's okay and bla-bla-bla, and I'll be there with you. That was a naivety of mine.
Time lapsed, she become famous and whatsoever. It really soothe me to know there're a lot people like who care for her and anything I would do for her, just to make her shine through the night. But it didn't do the same to me. I was left out just because I'm so far away with her. I was like a morning memory, left out like a forgotten casserole that your mom made because it tasted not too good. But I fight through it. Getting back for her attention and anything would do. I talked about my day and ask about hers. Well, I did it good and I got her attention, a lot of good things come, I think to myself. And that was my second Naivety.
Then, it happened. I was deleted by her. She was gone in my contact list. Like the sound of a snapping fingers. I asked her friend, she said it was formatted and whatsoever that I didn't want to recall. And I left her. I stopped giving guidance to her. That was my Ignorance. Leaving out all the best you could like that.
One day, I was kinda sad, don't know what to do, like a puppy that lose his way. It was like several month, I abandoned her. I was too busy with my life, which is good and lose her in some point of it. Totally lost her.
Yes, I still sent some messages and tweet about it. But, yes, she was a famous person, for God's sake. How come she could read all of it? I regret for being such an Ignorant person.
Then, I came to where she would perform on her show. Yes, I watched her carefully. I'm not batting my eyes, on another. Only on her. Hope that she will notice me somewhere in the crowds. Yes, of course, she doesn't. She has like a ton of fans. And a lot of them, are more, let's just say, famous among fans, than I am, A scrutty, stupid, good-for-nothing person.
After that, something came up on my mind, what about I retired? What if I just abandon it for good?
Second after that, I did it. But I just tell her on my last gift, my last contribution for her, that I'll support her for good and whatsoever to leave a good comments on me. I'll chat with her later and things that a friend should do. Here's my stupid and one after another Ignorance.
I asked her friend for her contacts, and yes, she was unknown. I tried to add her, but, no, she's gone entirely. Yes, all of my ignorance and my naivety are ruin this kind of relationship I had. But, one thing for sure, I was blinded by it. Blinded that I was the only number one fans and also a friend to her. Not after I heard about her story from among my friends. Yes, she was corrupted and blinded by being a famous person. It was a sad thing. I was there for her, I was left out for good, by her. Well, Karma does exist.
Long story short, I gave up on her. It's not easy, y'know. But, what am I suppose to do? Carry on and living my dream doesn't seems so bad, tho.
All I know is now she was happy for now, surrounded by her fans, living in her dream.
I also do the same thing. I live my life to the fullest and do things to achieve my long-term dream I planned.
My ignorance led me to the place that I was happy and regret, at the same time. But, mostly I did it since I was a naive person. It's never been good for a people like me, with a thought of it, well, Life goes on like a ship "choo-choo-choo".
Well, that's the end of my Diary. Hope to see you again, soon. If I'm not too busy for enjoy my routines and my life that not too awesome but hope I ain't regret for it.
Best Regard,
D.
